Erica's shopping takes her to all the wrong places , and, worst of all, to
her family of Jewish atheists. When she was a kid, she used to ask her
parents: "How can you be atheists?" Her mom would say, "Everyone's
relationship to this idea of a God is entirely personal. All you need to
know is never touch yourself -- you'll go blind." Her dad would say, "On
this planet God is the almighty dollar. Why don't you write a play about
that?" An infuriated Marsha would say: "If I weren't an atheist, I'd pray
for you." Erica rebelled against them all! She went Methodist. She became
a Radical Presbyterian. She converted to Orthodox Judaism. She DID Carlos
Castaneda. None of it fit.

In this hilarious, reckless and ultimately heroic story, she stops at
nothing, including wild drama therapy sessions between Germans and Jews and
a tumultuous exploration of the she/god, to find out if it's possible to
reconcile with people you've hated for years. "Erica Lann-Clark is
fiercely funny and commits outrageous acts of comic clairvoyance to get at
uncomfortable truths," says Martin Sheen. And indeed she is an irresistibly
comic storyteller, a master at finding the pain and making it funny. Her
journey is not only universal, it offers unique insight into one woman's
need to balance the books, to reconcile her past, her family and her dream
of freedom.